Are you living FULL ON or simply existing. That is the question. The meaning of exist in the Webster Dictionary is – to continue to be or live
To exist or to live full on, for me personally, is like comparing surviving to thriving.
In our current environment we may exist to the best of our knowledge quite adequately. We may work, pay bills, build our families and perhaps even take a holiday once a year. This is what many of our parents imprinted upon us as children – as living. In fact for many this is enough. For others like me, you wake up one day with questions racing through your head. Is this all there is? Am I truly doing what I want? Am I happy with my life as it is?
As a teen it was important to have my parent’s approval and support in what I was becoming and I chose to do things to gain that approval. Their belief systems soon felt awkward for what I was feeling inside and I started questioning whether this was enough for me. I was existing in a world laid out by their beliefs and standards and as the years passed, there was an unsettling within me that prompted the question…. Is this all there is?
By the age of 18 I realized that it was time for me to get some answers. Coming from a strict religious doctrine, my questioning met with much opposition and hard decisions that would alter the course of my life. For many years as I searched for the answers, and remained in survival mode, as my family disowned me for my search for knowledge outside what they considered the ‘norm’.
A quote from Kobi Yamada, “Sometimes you just have to take the leap and build your wings on the way down”, resonated deep within my inner being.
Many decades followed with life lessons presenting themselves that would push me to confirm who I truly was. I did not always find the strength inside to stay true to my purpose and in those times, I was grateful for the training I had growing up in survival mode. I now look back and realize I simply existed and for me it was vital to find the moment when I could love myself enough to begin to live my life FULL ON and build my wings. It is a never-ending journey.
Life is full of experiences that push us to the next level, and for me the lessons hit me like a sledgehammer as the internal dialogue of fear held on strong. First, I had to realize the impact of living a life of existence, and that came when I acknowledged that most of my life I had an emotional broken heart, never knowing what being loved unconditionally felt like. Searching in all the wrong places for that love I felt eluded me growing up.
Eventually this manifested into a physical broken heart and through that experience, I became fully aware of the opportunity to continue to live and move from being a survivor to a thriver – from existing to living my life FULL ON.
It starts with living a life of gratitude. Being grateful for the lessons, as challenging, as they seem in the moment and realizing that each lesson has a purpose and that purpose is to provide a choice.
Some choices are better than others and that in and of itself is a life lesson. The important thing to remember is that we choose and if it is not working for you than choose something different.
My message in writing this article is how important it is be learn gratitude for all life has given us whether we see it in the moment as a chore or a choice, choose to find your purpose, the life intended for you to live when you came here to earth. Never stop listening to your inner voice guiding you and understand as challenging as the life lesson may appear, there is a opportunity to grow and expand, survive and thrive as you begin to live life FULL ON.
Lee Pryke, Author, Speaker, Happiness Coach www.iamican.ca