There are so many factors beyond the little personality/ego that we aren’t even aware of. We are part of a
great puzzle that has been designed by the Creator who knows the big picture, because ‘life’ has already been scripted. A flower can blossom with a beautiful scent, but no matter how great a gardener we are, we have no control over its blossoming. The blossoming is not our responsibility nor is it any of our business.
In the meantime, there is nothing wrong with thinking positive thoughts, holding an intention or focusing on being successful or creative. It ultimately doesn’t matter because when it is our time to live a different life or awaken to the truth, we will. This might be why many teachings exhort us to do our actions to the best of our ability, just not to be attached to the results, “fruits.” In a teaching video, Dr. Hew Len said, “holding an intention is nothing more than a clear premonition.” It couldn’t be any other way because what is ours will come to us, besides, it’s already happened and so you cannot manifest something that is not already yours.
In a video, I saw many years ago, Living, Loving and Aids, Dr. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross spoke about surrender. She realized that saying the words, “Not my will but thy will Lord,” in her prayers was not sufficient, and it was only after many years that she discovered the need for one more line to be added. “Not my time, but thy time Lord.” When we think that we should be somewhere, or doing something and even try to bend time to make these things happen, this is a common trap. It causes such stress and
guilt not only in the efforting and the striving but also in the self-judgments that are sure to follow should we not reach our goals within the timeframes we set. Dr. Ross’s example demonstrates the maturity and the wisdom that is gleaned from many years of experience. Complete surrendering of Will and Time.
When we step out of our Source, we will immediately feel guilty because we have placed our attention on the illusion, i.e. ideas and concepts, rather than on what we really are, pure Divinity. Thus, when we feel guilt or doubt, we can use it as a sign or a reminder to return to the surrender – to the state of peaceful oneness, remembering that we are in the arms of our Beloved and that it is, “None of our business,” why we are where we are.
All of our good ideas and dreams and intentions are useless if they are not aligned with what the Divine has scripted. There is a great line that says, “If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans.” We don’t truly know what we need to be experiencing in our lives – or when – and it may not look anything like what others seem to be experiencing but is perfect for you.
In therapy you are responsible for your deeds. In spirituality, all deeds are God’s deeds.
Student of Ramesh Balsekar.