I love a good schema. I seem to need a structure for seeing the world. Something to hang the daily happenings on. A way to make some sense out of what’s coming at me.
And then I learn something that rocks my world. Something so foundational, that I have to stop and ask myself and my guides if I need to reset my entire way of seeing.
Often, I do. I look carefully at each piece of my current schema and ask: Now, that I know what I know, does this piece still fit? Does it feel right? Does it still provide value? Does it still glow?
Often, it doesn’t. I see that it has to go. I have to drop it. It may even have contributed, probably contributed, to an incomplete understanding of something that happened in the past.
Maybe there’s healing work that needs doing as I’m dropping this piece. Something from my past that’s stuck to this old way of seeing. I do the healing right away. I always feel better when I do.
The healing shifts my perception and opens new avenues for inquiry. Hint: I’m never finished with the inquiry. I’m not even ready to develop a new scheme until I explore the full implications of the new learning.
This goes on. If the new learning was truly earth-shattering, it may take a few days to put all the pieces back together again. In the meantime, I kinda don’t know what I know. At least my mind doesn’t! Lol
So I fumble around awhile. A psychic friend who saw me in one of these moments said she saw me as a totally blank white board.
I call this “reset.” That’s how it rolls for me. Mostly. How is it for you?
What happens when you come across some new knowledge that rocks your world? Do you deny it? Sit with it quietly for awhile? Dump your mind out and start over? Reset your schema, your way of seeing the world?
It seems like I’ve been through this process so many times it’s part of the music now. I kinda look forward to it. I seek and embrace new knowledge. I want to reorganize my seeing so I can apply this new knowledge not only to reinterpreting and healing the past, but to seeing in the now. I want to see clearly.