I have been all over the map lately. Off into the weeds, off into the ethers, and sometimes just plain off. There are so many things that I want to accomplish yet, I feel stuck in reaching my goals. I am truly blessed, yet find myself wanting more. Not material things, but rather intellectual and spiritual fulfillment. Sounds lofty but it truly is where my head is at. Some of it is also where I am at in my journey in this incarnation. Its about stoking the fire that resides within. It is the motivator, the focal point and the reason for my being. Fire is life, fire is power and fire is like a fuel that keeps me on track.
My fitness regime is primarily a program called Native Barre. It is exercises using a ballet barre, plenty of stretching and small isometric movements that are absolutely killer. One of the sayings in the session is “Stay in the fire”. We push the muscles to exhaustion and then push just a little further, thus pressing the burn. Simple but effective motivation. In yoga, the breath pushes a little further to get the full benefit of the pose.
Getting excited about this journey is getting fired up. I have encountered so many wonderful things, people, places, art, horses and much more. Being grateful for every episode, moment and encounter is my foundation. I must always concentrate on gratitude. It is the fuel that stokes the fire of life.
Daily, I write three things that I am grateful for. It is a practice that helps me to rewire a negative brain with negative thoughts to attempting to always come from a positive place. I must admit that so far, it seems to be accomplishing what I wanted. Fear is a force that can extinguish your fire. I have been witness to this. Many a time I engaged in what I like to call “Atom Bomb” thinking. This is where you are sure the apocalypse is coming over the most trivial thing. These are the times, I laugh and realize some basic truths.. I have a job, a place to sleep and food to eat. So, the world is not coming to an end. With gratitude, the fire continues to inspire.
Many a time, I have encountered what I would like to call is a dousing of my creative fire. I would tell myself that no one wants to read my work in The Magic Happens, and why bother. I stoke the embers by hoping that whatever I might share about this journey I am on, reaches someone out there who might agree or say yep, I’ve been there. I seek to uplift and give inspiration because sometimes we all need someone to lean on and be lifted. It’s about being bold and truly believing in our path no matter where it may lead us. No goal, cause, dream or hope is unworthy or trivial. Sometimes I think my goals are a bit simple or silly but I am my own worst critic. I state repeatedly that I am in awe of the staff of writers on this wonderful magazine and begin to question why I am here as my stories are but a small kernel of light and insight into my life and travels. My mentors have told me not to worry but sometimes I am a slow learner. I have made many choices in my life that could have put my fire out, but there is always a little ember that glows and keeps me here to participate in this dance for another 24 hours. I am grateful to the founders of TMH for inviting me to the dance. Hope the glass slipper stays on.
Looking at history, I am drawn to the Eternal Flame at the tomb of John F. Kennedy. My father took my sister and me to his funeral at Arlington Cemetery. I vividly remember when the eternal flame was lit, the dignitaries from countries from all over the world (mostly I remember Charles DeGaulle as he was so tall), the caisson, the riderless horse with the boots turned backwards in the stirrups, and just the quiet majesty of the ceremony. Fire or the flame is life.
There have been times that I have thought that my flame was about to burn out. Yes, dark times bring dark thoughts. With the help of many wonderful people, my flame is not extinguished. I chalk it up to an innate curiosity of what happens next. Some of it is the ability to admit you need help and to be able to reach out. This life is gift if we choose it to be.
There is a certain power in sitting in front of a fire and watching it burn. I am mesmerized in front of a fireplace, bonfire or whatever. It brings a sense of belonging to the earth and there is power in its dance. I am sure that all can relate as we have joined a number of friends and appreciated the fellowship of a nice bonfire.
As fire has the power to sustain life, it also has the power to extinguish life. My thoughts and prayers go out to those victims of the London high rise fire. I appreciate every moment and appreciate my life as things can change in an instant. Fire sustains us as in the cooking fire. Many a great culinary delight have come as a result of the flame. One of my guilty pleasures in a show on the cooking channel called Man, Fire, Food. Just plain fun.
I go back to my opening thought—Fire is life, fire is motivating, fire is our desires coming to life. It is all enveloping as in its warmth, and cold in its destructive capabilities. In Chinese medicine , it is one of the essential elements. These are Water, Fire, Wood, Metal and Earth. Each are a building block of life and interrelated.
I am grateful to each and every one of you out there and are enjoying the wonderful creations by the fabulous writers of The Magic Happens. Till we meet again on this journey , be happy, be kind and be at peace. Namaste!