I often feel like I have hit the proverbial brick wall. You know, in a rut, spinning one’s wheels, running in place and so on. It’s one step forward and three steps back with an occasional sidestep. This seems to come from setting my bar way too high to the point of being unrealistic. And in so doing, frustration has made me an easy mark. Bring on the should of’s.
On first thought, to become is about seeking and reaching the truly divine within. Aspiration, inspiration, self-compassion and having a firm belief in your chosen goal are elements that make up the journey. One realization I have learned through trial and error is that goals/plans change and sometimes frequently. It is not a bad thing but I get laser focused along the way and miss the good stuff all around. I hear that voice , “It’s the journey not the destination.” What I hoped and dreamed for in my twenties have evolved into something very different being in my sixties. A lot of twentysomething material desire has morphed into spiritual desires.
My practice of yoga has taught me so much beyond the poses and there is always more to learn. I seek to quiet the self-critic. I also realize that I will never master the practice of yoga. It is always a learning process. I seek not to impress others, but rather to become a more fully grounded individual. On an even higher note, the practice has brought me to to my best in fully being in the present moment. It is all we have. One must not linger in the past nor brood about the future. Precious energy is lost in dwelling on past events or trying to predict the future. I believe that if I don’t reach to become more than I am each day, my path will get stale. There is always something magical when you remain teachable.
Becoming is about adaptability. Life does throw its share of curve balls, so if we don’t roll with the twists and turns, we find ourselves lost in the weeds. There is a great line in “The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King“, in which Elrond tells Aragorn, “Become who you were born to be.” Aragorn is to become King but is mired in a crisis of confidence. Taking this line to heart, I feel that it behooves me to do everything that is humanly possible to facilitate this goal. And visualize that his goal will happen. Case in point, my relocation to Charlottesville, VA. I firmly believed that I would land suitable employment. It took applying to many opportunities and learning a great deal of patience. It took almost two years to accomplish but it came to pass. Faith, perseverance and a great deal of patience brought my goal to me. Remember, I grew up in the age of instant gratification.
Now for a little fun:
I would like to become incredibly patient. It’s a work in progress.
I would like to become a better yoga practitioner. To only think about being on the mat when I am on the mat. Ahh, practice!
I would like to become more accepting and happy with my writing. One of my loudest self-critic voices is telling me nobody wants to read my stuff. Again a work in progress.
I want to become a kinder and more grounded soul. Be more self compassionate.
I want to become an advocate for my own health. Don’t be so quick to take everything that the medical industry says as gospel. We are our own M.D.’s.
The process is about the willingness to change. Part of change is to always seek the higher road or the better path. As I have chosen to be more active, I make sure to walk, do yoga, take barre classes, hike, lift weights and just move. Sedentary lifestyle is to me, a death sentence. In my writing, fleshing out an article was once a great chore, but as I become a better wordsmith, the process has gotten easier and more refreshing. Writing is something near and dear to my heart. Maybe there really is a book in there somewhere. All about aspirations.
As the years roll by, I find I am turning a sharper ear to what my body says rather than just powering through it. One thing the medical community does a rather poor job in my eyes, is to listen, truly listen to their patients. After all, we do know ourselves best, don’t we. Sometimes, it’s not a matter of just taking a pill. It’s about getting to the source of the problem rather than treating a symptom. If we dare to try alternative healing , we should not be looked on like with have three heads. I often think back to two hundred years ago and there were not little magic pills. Most people were responsible for our own healing.
Becoming, changing, aspiring and seeking the best version of ourselves is what we meant to do. Accepting humanity, embracing compassion, seeking answers from within, rising up from anger, fear and hate, and lifting our fellow man up are gifts that have been bestowed upon us. The key is choosing to accept and utilize them to assist us in reaching the goal of finding and becoming our divine self. It is the true essence of life.
May each of you be happy, find peace, and seek a journey that is full of magic and miracles. Become your true self. Namaste!