To look within. Uff, I have done that a lot lately I would say. We all have different ways. I need the Sun touching my face, and my bare feet in the red African soil, for me truly to be able to look within, and to be in contact with the higher powers of “what, when, where and why”.
Looking within, looking within. The first thing that hit me is; “Looking within? Hm, some of my friends will probably find that very ego centered of me to do…their equal to negative behavior”.
I grew up in what I call a boxed-country. Denmark. A Welfare State. A Fairytale Land, as one of my American friends describe it. She compared us to the Whos (If you have ever seen How the Grinch Stole Christmas?). The Whos are happy, they have small lights hanging in the streets, bags in their hands, they pick apples from their trees, they sing Carrols. It’s welfare and community. Bless. Yet just outside of the beloved Whoville lives the Grinch, why we are best off to live within society’s standards!
I like to travel. When we travel, we develop. Our whole being. It is beautiful, but can also bring frustration, because we can then come to question who we are, what we are here for, and where we will go. Where should we go? Where is my place in humanity?
Living in such a great and safe part of the world; is it then spoiled to think that your life seems a bit doll?.. and that you want to do something else, something greater, with a meaning, and for a greater good? Safe children, end hunger, safe the World!
I understand travelling for longer periods of time is not for everyone. It can be a scary thought. It means going out of our comfort zone, outside Whoville. You will risk to become a mad traveler! You will even risk; never again to have ‘only’ one home, one favorite dish, one favorite coffee brand, loving more than one person and always miss. This is the price you pay for the richness of loving and knowing people in more than one place. A part of your heart will always be elsewhere. However, travelling away for a longer period of time enables you to put yourself, and your world, into perspective. It is here we experience the greatest personal development. We become more not less.
Even though I still love ‘my’ Whoville, I have now come to see it as a ‘boxed’ and very controlled country. We tend to put everything into boxes. Also each other. The majority states the normality… So, if I chose another way than the majority, my choices will seem abnormal. The human being likes order and control – most of the time. It makes us secure. With this idea about life and living you will live a secure happy life. IF, everything will stay inside those boxes! FYI, they rarely do, and how boring it would also be if we were all the same and if everything were predictable. For this reason change has become a negative word. But why? Is change so bad? Can’t change be good and positive?
Change and expectations are a pair. We will not like the change, if we expected nothing to change, or if we expected a different change. Quite funny actually, because how can you expect that nothing will ever change? Or, that all will change to your advantage, or the way you want and expected it to? You can’t. What you are then left with, is to accept change. To see change as a positive factor in life. If I change, it doesn’t mean I am not me. If I change my goal of life, or my location on the geographical map, it doesn’t mean I don’t love my family or my friends just as before. It doesn’t have to make me ego centered, just because I go outside the box, outside Whoville. I just increased my perspective of the boarders of life. No matter where we go in life, we will always be under the same Sun.
The dilemma left inside is which way to go in life, and how our choices effect our status quo. What is the right choice? Is there a wrong choice? I often feel a fear of making the wrong choice, and so I end up not taking choices at all. Until I find myself in a state, where I can’t be inside myself anymore. My soul will protest, and my being will demand me to act – at least for now.
You can analyze your situation and life for hours, for days, and years. You can do pros and cons over and over again. You can ask others for advice – BUT we cannot micro manage one another through life. Sometimes the answer is found by looking within. Acting upon this, is or is not ego centered, but in either case looking within is a positive necessity, to get in contact with ourselves. What does the self feel like doing. We must listen to our own voice, our own soul. To many people listen to the noise of the world instead of themselves.
If you don’t like where you are, then change it. You are not a tree. I need to remind myself of this quite often.
I recently adjusted my sails. I travelled to Africa. Again.
My boarder is not the boxes of Whoville, not anymore. My boarder is the Sun, the Sun and the Heart. Everything is possible, and if it is not understood by others, it doesn’t make it impossible. We can like the boxes, but we shouldn’t let it limit us. It shouldn’t have the power to limit our dreams.