It’s been a kicker of a couple of weeks, thirty six inches of snow, vertigo tests, and just not feeling up to snuff are a few of the issues that I have been dealing with. These things have knocked me off my game. I guess that I am not as resilient as I used to be and thats ok. I have been trying to craft a better perspective through meditation, gratitude statements, focusing on positive pursuits and not falling into the trap of isolation.
An adventure to me means many things. From getting around in a blizzard, riding a horse well, learning new things like playing the guitar, becoming a better writer and cook are just a few of my ideas. We think of adventure in terms of skydiving, climbing mountains, surfing or being Indiana Jones. In reality , an adventure is living your best each day and being truly grateful. Its finding the joy and being fully involved in life.
I went through a real down period recently. Felt and understood hopelessness. I felt this waking each day, “Is this all there is?” You know…wake, work, eat, sleep, repeat and so on. The answer was to get off my ass, remember that I am directly responsible for my happiness and create the adventures I seek. As I have stated before that life can be done perfectly if all I do is sit on the couch. I am in charge and there has to be plans set into motion if I am to experience new adventures. Ideas without plans will never come to fruition. And here is where I experience the slump and frustration. One of my goals is to attempt to create a book from all my writings with The Magic Happens. I am trying to find that central adventure and theme to tie it all together. May need help in this pursuit.
I appreciate the fact that while my life may not be awe inspiring, I am truly blessed with what I have been given and the opportunities that I have been given. Being my own worst critic has stunted my sense of adventure as well. There is way too much perfectionism lurking in the shadows. And I feel at times that I am letting people in my life down. Really it is about taking a risk and believing in oneself. A couple of things that I intend to experience is to travel, take care of me and be fully in the moment which is the key to it all.
Life is adventure and adventure is life. Now that is one hell of a good ride.